I'm so thankful to live in such a diverse community; it's not difficult to find myself sitting with a woman in her 80's having and cup of tea in the morning and then running around with toddlers in the afternoon.
As per usual I was hanging out with good friends and their son who is two years old. We had spent the afternoon at the beach and were on our way back to their house to eat dinner. As we made a stop at Woolies (the nearby grocery store) my friends' son began to get a bit fussy. He didn't care much for waiting in the car as his mum went in to get the last of what was needed for dinner, instead he kept asking for a "nack" (snack) or an apple. The fact that I did not have either of those items was not possible for him to understand. In my attempt to bring calm I tried offering a drink of water which was promptly turned down.
He continued saying the same words over and over again "nack, nack, nack".
I tried to reassure him, "We're almost home."
"When we get home we can get something to eat, we'll have dinner."
"Don't worry, just five more minutes, then we'll be home."
"We are very close, home is not far away."
Nothing seemed to work and fair enough he's two- when you're two you don't really have any concept of time or distance or why you're not getting what you're asking for in that exact moment. Your life is completely dependent on your parents and when you're not getting what you want it just doesn't make sense.
As I continued watching my little friend get worked up about wanting a snack and not wanting to be in his carseat I had a revelation... Sometimes I act like a two year old with God.
I get focused on a few particular things and it becomes impossible to see the bigger picture of what God is doing in my life and in the lives of those around me. At times, like my toddler friend who wanted a snack, I don't realise that it's not a snack that I need but an actual meal. We were planning to have dinner once we got home, his parents had planned for him to be well taken care of but he couldn't see that. It wasn't going to be long till we would be back to the house but again, the concept of time and distance could not be understood- how often am I like that with God?
"God, when will this change?"
"When will I have the answer I'm looking for?"
"Where are you right now, how come you feel distant or like you don't care?"
"How come you won't give me what I "need"?"
In the bible in a book called Romans it says "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them."
I believe that God is good, I believe he is the source of love, and that he is the best of the best. He's the most creative, most wise, and the author of life. I believe he is a good father who knows what each of his children need and works relentlessly to see those needs met. I also believe that his ways are not my ways and his thoughts are not mine- God is doing so much more than what we see before us and I'm learning to be ok with the unknown, to rest in the peace he offers, and to trust that he faithful.
My hope is that I and we may be able to respond to his faithfulness with hearts full or faith.
*Below is a song that encapsulates this for me, it's called Kia Kaha and the main tag says, "Kia kaha, kia maia, kia manawanui" which means "Be strong, be steadfast, be willing."
I'm Kelcie, I like people, baking, summer weather, the ocean, and Jesus!